Mindy Musings

Wow.  I'm moved into the realm of very VERY bad blogger.   Let me catch you all up.  (notice I said all like I have a huge fan club..lol).   Anyways, I'm lost some weight.   Yay?   I think about 6lbs now.   I seriously don't weigh myself very often so it could be more.  Based on comments of my co-workers, I think maybe more than I think.  lol.

Last week I went to the acupuncturist for the first time.  She convinced me to begin taking fish oil tablets and a liquid B complex, both of which make my pee smelly and yellow but if they do the job...wonderful.  She thinks I'm doing great with juicing and staying gluten, dairy and soy free.  With my MS, she would have demanded I become Gluten free as she is convinced of gluten's inflammatory properties in relation to MS.   Anyways, I wasn't thinking I was going to have acupuncture on that visit, maybe just listen to why she thought I should.  However, because I immediately began crying when I sat down, she was insistent I needed a "mood" fix.  Yes, I did cry.   I think I was emotionally spent but also I had been almost five days of my Cymbalta by that point.  

I like how she was not going to "compete" against my neuro but "compliment" his strategies.   It may well be that I need to go back on an antidepressant to help with nerve pain and fatigue and I will have to accept it but I'm gonna try really hard not to head in that direction.   I'm tired of feeling like a Zombie.   For example (and this is just an example).    Before antidepressants, if you told me my husband was having a torrid affair I would have been like "f*ck that!.  Where's the bitch.  Imma kill him and her".   On antidepressants I would most likely shrug and say "oh that's nice.  Did he pick up the orange juice on the way home?"    Seriously.  I don't react to anything.  It's like I live in my own protected "mindy" bubble only it's lonely in this bubble and I'm dying to break out.    Considering I swore at my husband this evening for throwing out a brand new hand soap, I would say I'm on my way to being the potty mouth queen I once was....lol

Today marked a week I have been taking the fish oils and b complex, no difference so far.  I have felt the "didn't juice" difference though.   On days I don't juice, I'm hot tempered, uncomfortable, unfocused and all around lousy.  I need to make juicing an every morning priority.  

On the non juicing front, it's still hit and miss with what I like and can manage to cook.  Tonight I made some lime rice or something like that.   I used sesame oil, mustard seeds, poppy seeds, ground tumeric and some curry, green onions and one tiny thai pepper (chopped) to season the boneless, skinless chixen strips.  I ran out of sesame oil and used the oil in the tahini jar too....lol.  I tossed the cooked stuff into my steamed organic long grain rice and then I squeezed an entire lime into the rice and tossed again, adding slivered almonds.   I must say...nummo!!!!   I think I'm going to leave this blog and go get some seconds.....